If you're too anxious to go to a therapist, don't go yet.
Find a video that soothes and inspires you. Watch it. Take gentle, deep breaths while you do.
Then find another. Watch that one. Breathe and know that because you are alive, every day is new.
Then talk to someone you feel safe with.
Ask them if they have any good sources (videos) for help with anxiety.
At some point, your brain will learn from your positive actions that you are braver you thought.
Find the smallest steps and take them. As you build bits of momentum, the next steps are less effortful.
Dave Wolovsky, MS CAPP
Relationships Coach, answering the internet's questions about all kinds of relationships.