I have an anxiety disorder, I really don't know what to do. Apparently I'm getting really bad and I need to see someone. But I'm scared.
Definitely find someone who makes you feel safe to talk to. A friend AND a professional if possible. The more the merrier.
Aside from that, anxiety is a brain state, not just a mind state. This means that the body is highly involved. I have had tons of social anxiety for years, and the only things that have made a real difference are mind-body practices and techniques.
Look for mind-body practices that you like. Meditation, yoga, tai chi, cardio exercise, dance, singing, anything that both moves and generates energy.
The other thing is to build a practice that you can use in real time. A self-talk technique, attentional focusing technique, or breathing technique. These kinds of things can allow you to recenter in real time. A therapist or coach might be able to help you find one for you.
Dave Wolovsky, MS CAPP
Relationships Coach, answering the internet's questions about all kinds of relationships.